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So long, suckers.

Sun, 17 May 2009 10:43:39 GMT

I'm moving to hungup-hearts.livejournal baby!
(After two years yes I know, toodles!)

Wear your heart on your sleeve, baby.

Fri, 15 May 2009 09:59:58 GMT

Hello world today's a bad day.
1) I'm not feeling well & thus I missed school + chem prac omg.
2) Everyone's going to CPM and no I'm not going.
3) I'm still trying to figure out how I'm supposed to get to JP & get Karen's present for her yknow.
4) I'm having hiccups.
5) I am overwhelmed by manymanymany thoughts and this sucks like mad.
6) I need to meet Jolee really really really soonnnnn.

Oh what a surprise hahaha, Hanyi just messaged me! Omg omg, Hanyi okay Hanyi hahaha she's so cute yay I feel better. Anyway, I love my dad (!!)

"The sony erricsson phone is repaired, luckily, but the battery's gone case. Bought a new battery at $35. So you owe me $35 :P"
"Hahaha yay!! Thanks, die already la I owe you $35!!"
"Zzzzzz...."
"EH WHAT I'M REALLY VERY POOR OKAY $35!! I know I know claim from Mummy!"
"Claim your head! Anyway can you please take care of your personal stuff in future? & does the ipod pouch fit?"

Does he even sound like a dad hahahhaah I love my dad (!!)
& that time we went to Malaysia hahaha for some gay trip & this happened on the bus!!

"Pig."
"What pig, you want anot?"
"Hahah okay give me... (awhile after I ate it) IT TASTES LIKE DRIED MENSES!"
"Dried menses your head ahhhhh!"
& then he happily finished the whole packet of dried mango hahahahahha whatthepong.

Love my daddy & mummy!!
(Not "The Father" whose highly, irresponsible & lazy & sickening & more.)

Paradox.

Tue, 12 May 2009 12:01:16 GMT

Life:
It's about finding knowing in the unknowing, and the unknowing in the knowing.
It's about finding certainty in the uncertainty, and the uncertainty in the certainty.
It's about finding unhappiness within the happiness,
and the happiness within the unhappiness.
It's about finding oneself within others,
and others within oneself.
It's about finding love within hate,
and hate within love.

& probably so much more.
But most importantly, its about finding our needs within God, and God within our needs.

nine; it has to come to a halt.

Break, me.

Mon, 11 May 2009 11:11:55 GMT

Honestly, I'm starting to think that I wasn't created for something big in the Kingdom. Most of the people start off feeling small, and then, they grow, and realize, they can be so much more. I started off differently. I had big dreams. I knew where I was going to get, I just knew that I would become a massive warship, one that would attain victories with God. But now, I'm beginning to think, maybe, I'm made for something small.

God promised us that we would be the head & not the tail, but if everyone was the head, then it wouldn't be a head anymore, if you get me. It'll just be a uniformed line, so, what's with the usage of the word, "head"?

Much as it is indeed difficult for me to accept, I think I'd be remaining small. I told Jolee that I'd like to be small for now, and that I was fine with it, because I'm still afraid of losing sight of God. To me, being more than who I am now would bring me pride, and hence, resulting in my fall, so there, I told her, I'd be small.

But you know, for somebody with great dreams like mine, being small forever is difficult. This thought scares me. I can be the tail now, but someday, I want to be the head. Yet something tells me, I won't.

Everyone has a part to play in the society, and maybe, I'm just meant to be a tiny little vendor in the Kingdom.

You know, God, much as I abhor this thought, much as I wished I could be the one converting five thousand each day, much as being small forever scares me, so much, I will still run.

Only because, I love You. Keep that in mind, God, keep that in mind.

Three million and Ten.

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 12:31:52 GMT

Hello world, life's been busy busy busy, but it's okay, I have God!!! (& chinese homework but still!!) I'm a happy kid cause:
1) I'm journalling more regularly for QT!
2) I'm feeling the urgency for O levels (Though the urgency alone hasn't gotten me to do anything yet HAHA)
3) School's been good cause I have awesome friends. HAHA FIGHT!!
4) I still have time for myself.
5) Spiritual warfare's been pretty manageable, ups & downs, but thank God, for God!!
6) Belly's been a happier kid and Happy Belly = Happy me (:

Dear Belly, Idk if you'd ever see this but please stay happy and try to find joy in all the things you do. Keep having faith that God really cares for you, and yeah as you've said, "When there's no way out, let God in." Love much!

Your Grace is Enough.

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 14:21:12 GMT

I am so happy okay Belly came for service today & she responded to God!! & you know after that she had to leave for a swimming competition, so she was looking for a cab, and man, we went to Centerpoint's taxi stand, 20 plus people!! Obviously, we were not that stupid so we walked around to find another, and then I suddenly thought of the secluded Park Hotel one, and there were like a few people before us. So in a few minutes, the first cab came, the couple went on, then the second after another few minutes, and then some guys left, leaving this man before us. Five minutes passed & there were totally no cabs, so Belly's faith was like seriously weakening.

"Eh God is real right, you pray to God for a taxi la, show me that God is real."

You know then I started praying like mad in my mind, "God please please please, she just had a little new found faith in You, don't let it die down please please God..."

Then TWO cabs turned in immediately & Belly could get on!! Then she said "God works!!"

Omg I WAS SO HAPPY OKAY, & I shouted "God loves you!"

OH AND SHE WON THE COMPETITION HAHAH SO HAPPY (: I will follow up well & yeah, cherish this soul that God has blessed us with!! So excited to see her coming more after her exams!! (:

Thank You so much, God!!!

SUPERFANTASTIC EASTER!

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 13:42:03 GMT

Friday's MCG was super good, all who attended should agree hahah, we had really good games, and k best part was totally seeing Zuoen trying to eat the suspending donut, super funny hahaha when she gets it into her mouth after a million years, she can't bite it off, super funny hahaha and she was going round & round hahaha hilarious. We played in two teams & we stepped on each other's balloons, played captain's ball with a cabbage till none was left, ate a gross mixture of bananas and tomatoes & watermelon and had other food games such as the donut one and passed cheezels with pocky sticks in our mouths haha super funny okay. The watermelon was the grossest please, ya know it has pores right, so it kinda like absorbed in all the tomato juice, sick. OH WELL. Oh & thank God for everyone's contribution in the food & all, haha totally fun manzxzx. Plus the attendance was awesome heeeheee, visitors (:

Saturday's Eggcite was good too! The egg games were quite fun (and gross) so yeah thank God for all of ya'll alright. (Food comm & game masters!) The war game after that was even funnier. Cleo & I were totally cat fighting hahah & anyway I think God wanted us to stop killing each other so He sent rain! Then we had super funny central talent time, not bad eh not bad, hahaha. Dinner with the unit + Central B at Subway (Which reminds me, do you want a 6-inch, or a footlong? HAHAHA) and it was good! Got to know Geraldine & Esther from Central B haha they're so cute. Yay God!!

Sunday's The Way Home was super awesome too. The video was done really well, of high quality, and it was indeed pretty touching. Really admire that couple for standing out to share their story man, and yeah the main topic was about forgiveness, which kinda struck me, I'm still struggling to forgive that... Man. Oh well. Shall be more prayerful about this & talk to Joanne (: After that we had dinner together at BK & it was Ziwei's first time hahahhaa, oh and I went to look for Joanne to send my love hahaha. Okay seriously, messy post, but my weekend was super ultra awesome k!!

TOTALLY HAPPY TO THE MAX HAHHAA. I'm so happy I shall go sleep now okay doesn't make sense but yay!!

& die seriously, DIE HAZEL + MX hahaha you all influenced me to add Sorority Life on Facebook & I'm seriously hooked. Anyway it's a totally fun bimbo game okay! You organize events, get rich, buy clothes, socialize etc. Hahahha super bimbotic, I am still considering whether I should get the "Coach Bag" or save money & get a better job haha. Oh & its quite "back stab-ish" cause you can get your girlfriends to attack somebody else & get money hahahaa, depending on how may items you all have in total. Super funny okay, and anyway I only started playing an hour ago & I'm level 6, I won some award for progressing very fast since it's just Day 1. Okay COME ON EVERYBODY PLAY SORORITY LIFE & JOIN MY HOUSE WE CAN BEAT EVERYONE ELSE (:

Joanne refuses to play it ):

K bye world haha.

Superawesomejampackedaction Weekend!!

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 13:33:11 GMT

Friday!
Easter Party @ Tiong, 12pm!
Meet at the MRT station!
Come for loads of food and games!
BE FAT BE LOVEDDD.
Really exciting games okay, & awesome cooking by yours truly.
(HAHA okay maybe I should cancel that out.)
Best part = FREE ADMISSION HOHO.
& of course, my company.

Saturday!
Eggcite! Easter event of games again!
This time it'll be gettin' down & dirty, WAR TIME!
Expect good food too, baybeh!!
West Coast Park (Near Clementi Station)
11-3pm!

Sunday!
Service @ Suntec Convention Hall!
Called "The Way Home", it'd be cool!
Timing to be updated again.
(Oh Lord, I need to find my invites.)

Please approach me & confirm with me if you're interested in attending any of the above events okay, I ensure you an extremely good time! Have a good Easter & be a good egg! Lovelove!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 08:51:35 GMT

My thoughts are a little messy now so pardon my structure of this post.

Basically, I was thinking of the departure of many people in church, and yeah it just got to me that besides the Christ factor, the people factor is very important. I mean, people do leave when they don't feel God/see the purpose/lose their drive etc, but I believe there's something more that entices the people to leave. & it's more than what we classify as "the world". It's the courage that people of the world provide.

People are shaken when they have better friends, or better lovers out there. These friends give them courage to abandon commitments.

I guess the area of "better lovers" cannot be helped. Sure, God provides perfect love, He created it and in fact, is Love itself, but if the person doesn't open up his/her spiritual eyes, ears, heart and all, nothing will work. God doesn't force, and well thus it makes a person vulnerable to the world, to Satan's temptations.

But as for "better friends", we can always always do something. If God's love is presented to the person through you, then the person has a stronger reason to stay on. If your bestfriend is from the caregroup, you would stay, no? If all you good friends are from church, you would stay too. Nothing will then give you that courage to leave. & then maybe, with a bit more time, the "backsliding" person would receive a firsthand touch from God, and never want to leave, ever again.

I really ought to be a better friend. I want the people around my community to "fear backsliding" for they know that no friend outside church can be better friends than us. I want people to know that they'll regret not being with us. Not because we're "blood brothers" or whatever, but because God's community is the most sincere & most loving & most caring community ever. Not even gang "brotherhood" can beat us!! Much as unorthdox this sounds, I think it helps in the Great Commission. (Correct me if I am wrong anyway okay)

So yes, I want to be veryveryvery sincere and veryveryvery genuine! 'Sides, these two factors also attract crowds, so yeap, I WILL GROW IN SINCERITY & BUILD A PRINCIPLED WORLD SAVING GENERATION.

Retain what we have, and get ready for more.
1oo percent, because we don't have time.

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Anyway here's something REALLY anticlimax, when Daniel asked where the 1oo chip was to be placed, everyone (except me) in my caregroup said "Wallet, QT book etc" HAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHA & after that they realized it was the area in their life.

FAT.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 11:24:57 GMT

YES I WANT TO BE THIS FAT! EVEN FATTER!
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SPIRITUALLY.